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I Will Be Good: A Memoir of a Dublin Childhood and a Life Less Ordinary
by Peig McManus'One of the best Dublin memoirs I've ever read' Donal FallonPeig McManus was born into the last of Dublin's tenements before moving to one of Ireland's first social housing estates in Cabra. Her father believed that children should earn their keep and learn to face reality as soon as possible. While that reality was poverty, class prejudice and strict Catholicism, at the heart of Peig's earliest memories are music, hoolies and the bonds of family and community.I Will Be Good is the story of a girl who rebelled against societal expectations and dreamed of further education. It tells of a young woman whose hopes of marriage to a Scottish sailor ended in the heartbreak of a daughter given up for adoption; of a mother who needed something more than her 'place at home'; and of a pioneering citizen who became one of Ireland's foremost campaigners for educational reform.Now, in her eighties, Peig shares her story of grit and courage: an inspiring journey through the trials and triumphs of a remarkable Irish woman who refused to do what she was told.
I Will Be Good: A Memoir of a Dublin Childhood and a Life Less Ordinary
by Peig McManus'One of the best Dublin memoirs I've ever read' Donal FallonPeig McManus was born into the last of Dublin's tenements before moving to one of Ireland's first social housing estates in Cabra. Her father believed that children should earn their keep and learn to face reality as soon as possible. While that reality was poverty, class prejudice and strict Catholicism, at the heart of Peig's earliest memories are music, hoolies and the bonds of family and community.I Will Be Good is the story of a girl who rebelled against societal expectations and dreamed of further education. It tells of a young woman whose hopes of marriage to a Scottish sailor ended in the heartbreak of a daughter given up for adoption; of a mother who needed something more than her 'place at home'; and of a pioneering citizen who became one of Ireland's foremost campaigners for educational reform.Now, in her eighties, Peig shares her story of grit and courage: an inspiring journey through the trials and triumphs of a remarkable Irish woman who refused to do what she was told.
I Will Bear Witness, Volume 1: 1933-1941
by Victor KlempererThe publication of Victor Klemperer's secret diaries brings to light one of the most extraordinary documents of the Nazi period. "In its cool, lucid style and power of observation," said The New York Times, "it is the best written, most evocative, most observant record of daily life in the Third Reich." I Will Bear Witness is a work of literature as well as a revelation of the day-by-day horror of the Nazi years.
I Will Bear Witness: A Diary of the Nazi Years, 1933-1941
by Martin Chalmers Victor KlempererI Will Bear Witness is a work of literature as well as a revelation of the day-by-day horror of the Nazi years. Victor Klemperer's secret diaries brings to light one of the most extraordinary documents of the Nazi period.
I Will Carry You: The Sacred Dance of Grief and Joy
by Angie SmithIn 2008, Angie Smith and her husband Todd (lead singer of the group Selah) learned through ultrasound that their fourth daughter had conditions making her "incompatible with life." Advised to terminate the pregnancy, the Smiths chose instead to carry this child and allow room for a miracle. That miracle came the day they met Audrey Caroline and got the chance to love her for the precious two-and-a-half hours she lived on earth. Upon receiving the original diagnosis, Angie started a blog (Bring the Rain) to keep family and friends informed of their journey. Soon, the site exploded in popularity, connecting with thousands who were either experiencing their own heartbreaking situations or simply curious about how God could carry someone through something so tragic. I Will Carry You tells the powerful story of a parent losing her child, interwoven with the biblical story of Lazarus to help those who mourn to still have hope--to find grace and peace in the sacred dance of grief and joy.
I Will Come Back for You: A Family Torn Apart by War and a Son's Search to Save Them
by Daniel HuhnThe incredible story of Manfred Gans, who raced across Germany in May 1945 to free his parents from a concentration campFour days after Germany’s surrender in May 1945, a young British officer hopped in a Jeep and headed east into Germany. But this was no ordinary soldier. Manfred Gans was searching for his family. As a Jewish boy in Nazi Germany, Manfred Gans had fled to England. As soon as he could, he signed up to fight, serving in the legendary British “Three Troop,” an elite unit made up of German-speaking refugees, and joining in the D-Day Normandy landings. Working undercover, Gans obtained vital intelligence, helped liberate occupied France and the Netherlands, and saved countless lives on both sides of the front. All the while, he dreamed of being reunited with his family. As the war came to an end, chaos reigned in Germany: defeated Wehrmacht soldiers faced columns of American and British soldiers, concentration camp survivors crossed paths with SS guards, and Soviet military roadblocks controlled the route to the east. But Gans managed to overcome all these obstacles to finally reach the place where his parents had last been seen: Theresienstadt. There, incredibly, he found his parents still alive. I Will Come Back for You is Manfred Gans’s remarkable story.
I Will Fight No More Forever
by Merrill D. BealUnpublished letters and diaries from eyewitnesses, interviews with descendants, and an intimate knowledge of the country enrich this narrative of the heroic Nez Perce Indian War waged in 1877 against relocation. This chronicle offers new perspectives on pre-war Indian-white relations, describing the character of both the U.S. government leadership as well as Indian leadership.
I Will Find You
by Joanna Connors"This is it. My rape. I knew it was coming. Every woman knows. And now here it is. My turn. " When Joanna Connors was thirty years old on assignment for the Cleveland Plain Dealer to review a play at a college theater, she was held at knife point and raped by a stranger who had grown up five miles away from her. Once her assailant was caught and sentenced, Joanna never spoke of the trauma again, until 21 years later when her daughter was about to go to college. She resolved then to tell her children about her own rape so they could learn and protect themselves, and she began to realize that the man who assaulted her was one of the formative people in her life. Setting out to uncover the story of her attacker, Connors embarked on a journey to find out who he was, where he came from, who his friends were and what his life was like. What she discovers stretches beyond one violent man's story and back into her own, interweaving a narrative about strength and survival with one about rape culture and violence in America. I Will Find You is a brave, timely consideration of race, class, education and the families that shape who we become, by a reporter and a survivor.
I Will Find You: A Reporter Investigates the Life of the Man Who Raped Her
by Joanna ConnorsThis is it. My rape. I knew it was coming. Every woman knows. And now here it is. My turn.” When Joanna Connors was thirty years old on assignment for the Cleveland Plain Dealer to review a play at a college theater, she was held at knife point and raped by a stranger who had grown up five miles away from her. Once her assailant was caught and sentenced, Joanna never spoke of the trauma again, until 21 years later when her daughter was about to go to college. She resolved then to tell her children about her own rape so they could learn and protect themselves, and she began to realize that the man who assaulted her was one of the formative people in her life. Setting out to uncover the story of her attacker, Connors embarked on a journey to find out who he was, where he came from, who his friends were and what his life was like. What she discovers stretches beyond one violent man’s story and back into her own, interweaving a narrative about strength and survival with one about rape culture and violence in America. I Will Find You is a brave, timely consideration of race, class, education and the families that shape who we become, by a reporter and a survivor.
I Will Hold: The Story of USMC Legend Clifton B. Cates, from Belleau Wood to Victory in the Great War
by James Carl NelsonThe incredible true story of Clifton B. "Lucky" Cates, whose service in World War I and beyond made him a legend in the annals of the Marine Corps.Cates knew that he and his small band of marines were in a desperate spot. Before handing the note over to a runner, he added three words that would resound through Marine Corps history:I WILL HOLDFrom the moment he first joined the Marine Reserves of the American Expeditionary Force in World War I, Clifton B. Cates was determined to make his mark as a leader. Little did he know what he would truly accomplish in his legendary career.Not as well-known as his contemporaries such as Alvin C. York, his fame would not come from a single act of heroism but from his consistent and courageous demeanor throughout the war and beyond.In the bloody second half of 1918 with the 6th Marine Regiment, he was awarded the Navy Cross, the Distinguished Service Cross, the Purple Heart, the Silver Star, was recognized by the French government with the Legion of Honor and the Croix de Guerre, and earned the nickname "Lucky."I Will Hold is the inspiring, brutally vivid, and incredible true life story of a Marine Corps legend whose grit and unstoppable spirit on the battlefield matched his personal drive and sage wisdom off of it.INCLUDES PHOTOS
I Will Live for Both of Us: A History of Colonialism, Uranium Mining, and Inuit Resistance (Contemporary Studies on the North #9)
by Jack Hicks Joan Scottie Warren BernauerBorn at a traditional Inuit camp in what is now Nunavut, Joan Scottie has spent decades protecting the Inuit hunting way of life, most famously with her long battle against the uranium mining industry. Twice, Scottie and her community of Baker Lake successfully stopped a proposed uranium mine. Working with geographer Warren Bernauer and social scientist Jack Hicks, Scottie here tells the history of her community’s decades-long fight against uranium mining. Scottie's I Will Live for Both of Us is a reflection on recent political and environmental history and a call for a future in which Inuit traditional laws and values are respected and upheld. Drawing on Scottie’s rich and storied life, together with document research by Bernauer and Hicks, their book brings the perspective of a hunter, Elder, grandmother, and community organizer to bear on important political developments and conflicts in the Canadian Arctic since the Second World War. In addition to telling the story of her community’s struggle against the uranium industry, I Will Live for Both of Us discusses gender relations in traditional Inuit camps, the emotional dimensions of colonial oppression, Inuit experiences with residential schools, the politics of gold mining, and Inuit traditional laws regarding the land and animals. A collaboration between three committed activists, I Will Live for Both of Us provides key insights into Inuit history, Indigenous politics, resource management, and the nuclear industry.
I Will Never See the World Again: The Memoir of an Imprisoned Writer
by Ahmet AltanA resilient Turkish writer’s inspiring account of his imprisonment that provides crucial insight into political censorship amidst the global rise of authoritarianism. The destiny I put down in my novel has become mine. I am now under arrest like the hero I created years ago. I await the decision that will determine my future, just as he awaited his. I am unaware of my destiny, which has perhaps already been decided, just as he was unaware of his. I suffer the pathetic torment of profound helplessness, just as he did. Like a cursed oracle, I foresaw my future years ago not knowing that it was my own. Confined in a cell four meters long, imprisoned on absurd, Kafkaesque charges, novelist Ahmet Altan is one of many writers persecuted by Recep Tayyip Erdoğan’s oppressive regime. In this extraordinary memoir, written from his prison cell, Altan reflects upon his sentence, on a life whittled down to a courtyard covered by bars, and on the hope and solace a writer’s mind can provide, even in the darkest places.
I Will Not Die an Unlived Life: Reclaiming Purpose and Passion
by Dawna MarkovaThe author and psychotherapist shares her journey of illness and recovery in this inspiring guide to living your life to the fullest. In I Will Not Die an Unlived Life, Dawna Markova recounts her incredible journey from being diagnosed with a life-threatening illness to finding deeper meaning in her life. Along the way, she guides readers toward discovering their own sense of value and purpose. When we feel lost, Markova points out, we can either continue to live habitual lives and resign our strength—or we can choose to follow our passions. Many of us have times of feeling stagnant and sapped of energy. Rather than judging these moments negatively, Dr. Markova reframes them as periods of rest for our passions. In doing so, she challenges us to slow down and stay in touch with ourselves. Poetic and inspiring, I Will Not Die an Unlived Life is a powerful reminder that it is never too late to live your life.
I Will Not Leave You Comfortless: A Memoir
by Jeremy JacksonThis memoir of “a happy childhood in rural Missouri just before the digital revolution [is] a sweet record of a time and a place that was not Always On.” —St. Louis Post-DispatchSpanning one year of the author’s life—1984—I Will Not Leave You Comfortless is the intimate memoir of a young boy coming to consciousness in small-town Missouri. The year will bring ten-year-old Jeremy first loves, first losses, and a break from the innocence of boyhood that will never be fully repaired. For Jeremy, the seeming security of his life on the family farm is forever shaken by the life-altering events of that pivotal year. Throughout, he recalls the deeply sensual wonders of his rural Midwestern childhood—bicycle rides in September sunlight; the horizon vanishing behind tall grasses—while stories both heart-wrenching and humorous, tragic and triumphant, Jackson weaves past, present, and future into the rich Missouri landscape.“I could smell the mulberries crushed underfoot and the sweet steam of the cinnamon roll Grandma heated in the toaster oven just for Jeremy, hear the ever-increasing volume of an approaching late-spring storm . . . The year of Jeremy Jackson’s life on which he meditates in I Will Not Leave You Comfortless marked his transition from the perfect happiness of childhood to the much more complex reality of adulthood. It records, as well, the abiding comfort that remains—family, home and love.” —Wichita Eagle“Jackson writes about Missouri as the young Hemingway wrote about Michigan: with a clear eye; with hard-edged nostalgia; and (here’s the thing) with brilliance.” —Darin Strauss, author of Half a Life
I Will Plant You A Lilac Tree: A Memoir Of A Schindler's List Survivor (Hampton-brown Edge)
by Laura HillmanIn the spring of 1942, Hannelore Wolff left school to join her family in a Jewish concentration camp. But amidst the suffering, she found the will to survive.
I Will Plant You a Lilac Tree
by Laura Hillman"HANNELORE, YOUR PAPA IS DEAD." In the spring of 1942 Hannelore received a letter from Mama at her school in Berlin, Germany--Papa had been arrested and taken to a concentration camp. Six weeks later he was sent home; ashes in an urn. Soon another letter arrived. "The Gestapo has notified your brothers and me that we are to be deported to the East--whatever that means." Hannelore knew: labor camps, starvation, beatings...How could Mama and her two younger brothers bear that? She made a decision: She would go home and be deported with her family. Despite the horrors she faced in eight labor and concentration camps, Hannelore met and fell in love with a Polish POW named Dick Hillman. Oskar Schindler was their one hope to survive. Schindler had a plan to take eleven hundred Jews to the safety of his new factory in Czechoslovakia. Incredibly both she and Dick were added to his list. But survival was not that simple. Weeks later Hannelore found herself, alone, outside the gates of Auschwitz, pushed toward the smoking crematoria. I Will Plant You a Lilac Tree is the remarkable true story of one young woman's nightmarish coming-of-age. But it is also a story about the surprising possibilities for hope and love in one of history's most brutal times.
I Will Protect You: A True Story of Twins Who Survived Auschwitz
by Eva Mozes KorThe illuminating and deeply moving true story of twin sisters who survived Nazi experimentation, against all odds, during the Holocaust.Eva and her identical twin sister, Miriam, had a mostly happy childhood. Theirs was the only Jewish family in their small village in the Transylvanian mountains, but they didn't think much of it until anti-Semitism reared its ugly head in their school. Then, in 1944, ten-year-old Eva and her family were deported to Auschwitz. At its gates, Eva and Miriam were separated from their parents and other siblings, selected as subjects for Dr. Mengele's infamous medical experiments.During the course of the war, Mengele would experiment on 3,000 twins. Only 160 would survive--including Eva and Miriam.Writing with her friend Danica Davidson, Eva reveals how two young girls were able to survive the unimaginable cruelty of the Nazi regime, while also eventually finding healing and the capacity to forgive. Spare and poignant, I Will Protect You is a vital memoir of survival, loss, and forgiveness.
I Will Scream to the World: My Story. My Fight. My Hope for Girls Everywhere.
by Jaha Marie DukurehThis extraordinary memoir details the monumental journey of one young Gambian woman from survivor of FGM and forced child marriage, to global activist and political leader who became UN Women's first Goodwill Ambassador for Africa, one of Time Magazine&’s 100 Most Influential People, and among the youngest people nominated for the Nobel Peace Prize.On the wedding night of her first arranged marriage, fifteen-year-old Jaha learned that she had undergone Female Genital Mutilation (FGM) as an infant. That painful discovery, coupled with her experiences with a second arranged marriage, set Jaha on her path as an activist—a courageous mission that would require her to brave hostility in her community and family, and even attempts on her life. Despite the challenges, and with ever-growing determination, Jaha founded Safe Hands for Girls, an organization that succeeded in having FGM banned in Gambia. She is now working to eradicate FGM and forced child marriage worldwide by 2030 and running to be the next President of The Gambia. I Will Scream to the World! recounts Jaha&’s ongoing, uphill journey to be seen as a survivor, activist, but most of all as a human. She dives into her childhood to show the root causes of her crusading, shares her personal and professional life, and explores, as only a survivor can, a practice that while violent and troubling, is often culturally misunderstood. Above all, Jaha&’s unflinchingly honest memoir is a story of resilience and extraordinary fearlessness, of the strength that comes with learning to love oneself, and of the power within everyone to create meaningful and lasting change.
I Will Survive: The Book
by Gloria GaynorI Will Survive is the story of Gloria Gaynor, America's "Queen of Disco." It is the story of riches and fame, despair, and finally salvation. Her meteoric rise to stardom in the mid-1970s was nothing short of phenomenal, and hits poured forth that pushed her to the top of the charts, including "Honey Bee," "I Got You Under My Skin," "Never Can Say Goodbye," and the song that has immortalized her, "I Will Survive," which became a #1 international gold seller. With that song, Gloria heralded the international rise of disco that became synonymous with a way of life in the fast lane - the sweaty bodies at Studio 54, the lines of cocaine, the indescribable feeling that you could always be at the top of your game and never come down. But down she came after her early stardom, and problems followed in the wake, including the death of her mother, whose love had anchored the young singer, as well as constant battles with weight, drugs, and alcohol. While her fans always imagined her to be rich, her personal finances collapsed due to poor management; and while many envied her, she felt completely empty inside. In the early 1980s, sustained by her marriage to music publisher Linwood Simon, Gloria took three years off and reflected upon her life. She visited churches and revisited her mother's old Bible. Discovering the world of gospel, she made a commitment to Christ that sustains her to this day.
I Will Write to Avenge My People: The Nobel Lecture
by Annie ErnauxPublished for the first time in a beautiful collectible edition, the essential lecture delivered by the 2022 recipient of the Nobel Prize in Literature, Annie Ernaux.«J&’écrirai por venger ma race»It was as a young woman that Annie Ernaux first wrote these words in her diary, giving a name to her purpose in life as a writer. She returns to them in her stirring defense of literature and of political writing in her Nobel Lecture, delivered in Stockholm on December 7, 2022.To write of her own life, she asserts, is to &“shatter the loneliness of experiences endured and repressed;&” to mine individual experience is to find collective emancipation. Ernaux&’s speech is a bold assertion of the capacity of writing to give people a sense of their own worth, and of one writer&’s commitment to bearing witness to life, its joys and its injustices.Includes Annie Ernaux's Nobel lecture, her Nobel banquet speech, a congratulatory speech by Professor Anders Olsson, Chair of the Nobel Committee for Literature, and the Nobel opening address by Professor Carl-Henrik Heldin, Chairman of the board of the Nobel Foundation.
I Wish I Knew: Lessons on love, life and family as you grow - the perfect gift for Mother’s Day
by Georgia KousoulouLessons on love, life and family as you grow - the first beautiful book from online agony aunt and TV star, Georgia Kousoulou.I wish I knew... the 2am night-feed silence is deafening how to find myself after becoming a mum that one day, I'd have all the courage I'd ever need'When I first became a mum, I lost my own identity for a while. It's almost expected that it's entirely what you become: Mum with a capital M. I wrote this book for anyone who has ever felt overwhelmed, alone or who needs to hear someone else saying what they are thinking! I Wish I Knew is everything I wish I had known, and so much more...'----In her honest, down-to-earth style (with nothing off-limits!) TV star and online agony aunt Georgia shares the lessons she's learnt about family, relationships and love. No matter how much time you have to delve in, you will find the perfect pick-me-up inside. Have a break with a short essay or dive into a longer chapter, all featuring Georgia's best pieces of advice at the end.Alongside Georgia's journey to motherhood and everything that comes with it - the ups and the downs - fill in your own thoughts in the book's journal section and share what you wish you had known, too.
I Wish I Knew: Lessons on love, life and family as you grow - the perfect gift for Mother’s Day
by Georgia KousoulouLessons on love, life and family as you grow - the first beautiful book from online agony aunt and TV star, Georgia Kousoulou.I wish I knew... the 2am night-feed silence is deafening how to find myself after becoming a mum that one day, I'd have all the courage I'd ever need'When I first became a mum, I lost my own identity for a while. It's almost expected that it's entirely what you become: Mum with a capital M. I wrote this book for anyone who has ever felt overwhelmed, alone or who needs to hear someone else saying what they are thinking! I Wish I Knew is everything I wish I had known, and so much more...'----In her honest, down-to-earth style (with nothing off-limits!) TV star and online agony aunt Georgia shares the lessons she's learnt about family, relationships and love. No matter how much time you have to delve in, you will find the perfect pick-me-up inside. Have a break with a short essay or dive into a longer chapter, all featuring Georgia's best pieces of advice at the end.Alongside Georgia's journey to motherhood and everything that comes with it - the ups and the downs - fill in your own thoughts in the book's journal section and share what you wish you had known, too.
I Wish I Were Engulfed in Flames: My Insane Life Raising Two Boys with Autism
by Jeni DeckerJeni Decker is five-foot nothing and one hundred and [redacted] pounds-a self described roly-poly, forty-something, Reubenesque bon-bon of a gal, often called cute but never sexy. She has two sons with autism on opposite ends of the spectrum (Jake and Jaxson), a husband who prefers hunting to household chores, an Australian Shepherd named Sugar, and an albino frog named Humbert Humbert. This is her story-a brash, personal, and some-times shocking memoir of one woman's determination to raise two healthy kids with autism and keep her sanity in the process. It's not always easy. Between "poop" incidents, temper tantrums, and the "helpful" advice about parenting from her fellow citizens in the grocery store, Jeni often finds herself wanting to throw something. With chapters like: "Tickling the Weiner," "Why I Hate Pokemon," "Santa: Give it a Friggin' Rest, Already," and "Oprah's the Reason My Kid Thinks I Want to Drown Him in the Tub," I Wish I Were Engulfed in Flames also includes mini-chapters written by her eldest son, Jake.Readers looking for laughter and inspiration will find it here aplenty, along with tons of surreal anecdotes that will have you either shaking your head in disbelief (for those unacquainted with the world of autism) or nodding with recognition (for those who are). As Jeni says, "I developed a new 'normal.'"
I Wish Someone Had Told Me . . .: The Best Advice for Building a Great Career and a Meaningful Life
by Dana PerinoTerrific advice, insightful stories, and powerful life lessons curated by Dana Perino the #1 New York Times bestselling author of And the Good News Is . . . and beloved co-host of Fox News' The Five and America’s Newsroom, inspired by her friends and colleagues.I Wish Someone Had Told Me . . . is a blueprint for success in your life and career. An all-star line-up of Dana’s lifelong friends and Fox News personalities with wide-ranging talents and accomplishments share amazing stories about their own experiences, offering invaluable guidance and wisdom on a range of subjects, including:Finding the right path and getting your foot in the door;How to break out in your job and get recognized;Making a transition in your career and betting on yourself;How to keep improving and adding new skills;Balancing relationships, avoiding burnout, and having a life;And much more.This illuminating and essential book is ideal for new graduates and everyone starting their first job; professionals thinking about making a change, transitioning into a different position, or phasing into a new career or act in life; and anyone looking for timeless insight and a helpful resource for self-improvement and career enhancement.Contributors include: Bret Baier, Dierks Bentley, Ainsley Earhardt, Jimmy Failla, Harold Ford Jr., Trey Gowdy, Greg Gutfeld, Benjamin Hall, Bill Hemmer, Lawrence Jones, Martha MacCallum, Charles Payne, Judge Jeanine Pirro, John Roberts, Mike Rowe, Jessica Tarlov, Jesse Watters, Salena Zito, Tyrus, and many more.
I Wish Sons Came With Instructions
by Harry RockefellerWithin these pages I hope you get to know me. Mostly, I hope you come to realize my intent to carry out my calling by God to raise my own sons to know their Heavenly Father. I enjoyed a good loving human father but only for the first 18 years of my life. Raising my sons had to be done without his help. But, rather than being at a disadvantage, I knew I had a great opportunity to lean on a promise to those in submission to the Holy God found in the pages of the Bible. He is "father of the fatherless". [Psalm 68:5]This book is not just about general principles: love God, abide in Christ, love your sons, be humble, deny yourself, etc. These are all important but here I share personal stories about dealing with my sons at all stages of life. My one-year-old woke up screaming from a nightmare. He's barely able to talk. What do I say or do? My 3-year-old loves his independence walking at his pace. Next, he decides he is big enough to carry a large package by himself out of a store. Should I let him try? When should I talk to my son about sex? What should I say? How concerned should I be about what he is being taught in public school? What should I do if it doesn't agree with what I actually want my son to be taught? How do I "teach" my adult son to think for himself about what is right or wrong, good or evil? All these questions and more are answered using real family stories. But, by themselves, my life stories, no matter how interesting, is not the main point. My Heavenly Father gave me the answers, so in these stories you will also find relevant Scripture.The main point is to cause something written here to resonate with you. Maybe a memory of something your Mom, Dad, or Grandma said to you when you were a child would suddenly fill your mind and, right now you would have a decision to make. Do I want to love my own son as I know I should? Am I being selfish if I spend this money in this way? Perhaps you need to make a decision. You may have more than one path ahead of you and don't know which way to turn. Should I open my Bible and pray for godly wisdom for myself and my wife in what to do with our son? If not for your sake, get close to your Heavenly Father for the sake of your son. Build a parenting foundation on the Word of God.I pray you would cultivate a relationship with your loving Heavenly Father and teach that to your own son.