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The Lone Rancher (Dreamspun Desires #4)
by Andrew GreyHe'll do anything to save the ranch, including baring it all. Aubrey Klein is in real trouble--he needs some fast money to save the family ranch. His solution? A weekend job as a stripper at a club in Dallas. For two shows each Saturday, he is the star as The Lone Rancher. It leads to at least one unexpected revelation: after a show, Garrett Lamston, an old friend from school, approaches the still-masked Aubrey to see about some extra fun... and Aubrey had no idea Garrett was gay. As the two men dodge their mothers' attempts to set them up with girls, their friendship deepens, and one thing leads to another. Aubrey know his life stretching between the ranch and the club is a house of cards. He just hopes he can keep it standing long enough to save the ranch and launch the life--and the love--he really hopes he can have.
The Lonely Letters
by Ashon T. CrawleyIn The Lonely Letters, A tells Moth: “Writing about and thinking with joy is what sustains me, daily. It nourishes me. I do not write about joy primarily because I always have it. I write about joy, Black joy, because I want to generate it, I want it to emerge, I want to participate in its constant unfolding.” But alongside joy, A admits to Moth, come loneliness, exclusion, and unfulfilled desire. The Lonely Letters is an epistolary blackqueer critique of the normative world in which Ashon T. Crawley—writing as A—meditates on the interrelation of blackqueer life, sounds of the Black church, theology, mysticism, and love. Throughout his letters, A explores blackness and queerness in the musical and embodied experience of Blackpentecostal spaces and the potential for platonic and erotic connection in a world that conspires against blackqueer life. Both a rigorous study and a performance, The Lonely Letters gestures toward understanding the capacity for what we study to work on us, to transform us, and to change how we inhabit the world.
The Lonely Veteran's Guide to Companionship (Living Out: Gay and Lesbian Autobiog)
by Bronson LemerIn this collection of interrelated essays, Bronson Lemer explores companionship through the lens of a queer veteran, focusing on the difficulty of forming true connections with others, including a “battle buddy” during basic training, the people he meets while teaching in China, and the spirit of a long-dead older sister. Lemer uses lessons from popular culture and literature—the globe-trotting exploits of fictional criminal Carmen Sandiego, the sexual exploration in Baldwin’s Giovanni’s Room, the expatriate longing in Hemingway’s A Moveable Feast, just to name a few—as a means to think more broadly about the role of the outsider and how we navigate aimlessness while searching for stability and meaning. Lemer’s distinct take on the veteran’s story boldly engages the intersection of military narratives and queer culture, including examinations into the role of thirst traps in contemporary dating culture, the fears of long-term health damage caused by military service, and the ways in which intimate relationships can lead to a loss of self. Taken together, his essays illustrate how one queer veteran managed to carve out a path that led him, however awkwardly at times, closer to the person he wanted to be.
The Lonely War
by Alan Chin3rd EditionThe realities of war are brutal for any man, but for a Buddhist like Andrew Waters, they're unthinkable. And reconciling his serene nature with the savagery of World War II isn't the only challenge Andrew faces. First, he must overcome the deep prejudice his half-Chinese ancestry evokes from his shipmates, a feat he manages by providing them with the best meals any destroyer crew ever had. Then he falls in love with his superior officer, and the two men struggle to satisfy their growing passion within the confines of the military code of conduct. In a distracted moment, he reveals his sexuality to the crew, and his effort to serve his country seems doomed. When the ship is destroyed, Andrew and the crew are interned in Changi, a notorious Japanese POW camp. In order to save the life of the man he loves, Andrew agrees to become the commandant's whore. He uses his influence with the commandant to help his crew survive the hideous conditions, but will they understand his sacrifice or condemn him as a traitor? First edition published by Zumaya Publications, November 2009.Second edition published by Dreamspinner Press, April 2012.
The Long Beach Gay Trials: A History of Injustice (True Crime)
by Gerrie SchipskeHow Long Beach caused the death of John A. Lamb. Immediately after his 1914 election as mayor of Long Beach, Louis Napoleon Whealton fired the chief of police and raided the city treasury. To replenish the funds, Mayor Whealton concocted a scheme to collect fines from any male “who made advances toward other men.” Two special police officers entrapped and arrested thirty-one men, dragging them before a judge to pay up or risk a public trial. When one victim refused to play along, newspapers were quick to publish the names of everyone accused, including local pharmacist and popular churchman John A. Lamb. His suicide made headlines, but the city continued to target gay men well into this century. Author and historian Gerrie Schipske uncovers the story of a tragic death with far-reaching consequences in Long Beach.
The Long Falling
by Keith RidgwayGrace Quinn is an Englishwoman living in rural Ireland. Isolated by religion and circumstance, she endures both an abusive husband and a strained relationship with her son, Martin, whose open homosexuality her husband refuses to accept. After an act of desperation, reeling with doubt and denial, she seeks out her son in Dublin. Keith Ridgway "affectingly renders the separate sanctuaries of mother and son . . . and lights the distance between them" (The New Yorker). Keith Ridgway's first novel, nominated for 1999 Lambda Literary Award.
The Long Field: Wales and the Presence of Absence, a Memoir
by Pamela PetroFor readers of H Is for Hawk, an intimate memoir of belonging and loss and a mesmerizing travelogue through the landscapes and language of WalesHiraeth is a Welsh word that's famously hard to translate. Literally, it can mean "long field" but generally translates into English, inadequately, as "homesickness." At heart, hiraeth suggests something like a bone-deep longing for an irretrievable place, person, or time—an acute awareness of the presence of absence. In The Long Field, Pamela Petro braids essential hiraeth stories of Wales with tales from her own life—as an American who found an ancient home in Wales, as a gay woman, as the survivor of a terrible AMTRAK train crash, and as the daughter of a parent with dementia. Through the pull and tangle of these stories and her travels throughout Wales, hiraeth takes on radical new meanings. There is traditional hiraeth of place and home, but also queer hiraeth; and hiraeth triggered by technology, immigration, ecological crises, and our new divisive politics. On this journey, the notion begins to morph from a uniquely Welsh experience to a universal human condition, from deep longing to the creative responses to loss that Petro sees as the genius of Welsh culture. It becomes a tool to understand ourselves in our time. A finalist for the Wales Book of the Year Award and named to the Telegraph's and Financial Times's Top 10 lists for travel writing, The Long Field is an unforgettable exploration of &“the hidden contours of the human heart.&”
The Long Game
by Ellie ThomasDuring the autumn of 1765 in London, Joshua Jones, a young working man of colour and aspiring artist, is grafting hard at his studies while earning his keep as a waiter in an exclusive St. James’ gambling club managed by his uncle.The only cloud on Joshua’s horizon is the progress of his love affair with Frank Bartlett, an older man and unofficial diplomat who met and seduced Joshua the year before.After an idyllic summer in Italy together, reality bites when they return to London, and Frank plunges into dealing with the disastrous political fallout from the proposed Stamp Act. Joshua understands his lover’s preoccupation but worries he is being pushed aside as Frank becomes so involved in diplomatic wrangling that he risks injuring his health.During tough times, Joshua is determined to stick with Frank. But will Frank take notice? And how can Joshua convince his true love that he is there for the long haul?
The Long Game: A Gay Sports Romance (Game Changers #6)
by Rachel ReidShane and Ilya&’s story, first seen in Heated Rivalry, continues in this long-awaited hockey romance from USA TODAY bestselling author Rachel Reid.To the world they are rivals, but to each other they are everything.Ten years.That&’s how long Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov have been seeing each other. How long they&’ve been keeping their relationship a secret. From friends, from family…from the league. If Shane wants to stay at the top of his game, what he and Ilya share has to remain secret. He loves Ilya, but what if going public ruins everything?Ilya is sick of secrets. Shane has gotten so good at hiding his feelings, sometimes Ilya questions if they even exist. The closeness, the intimacy, even the risk that would come with being open about their relationship…Ilya wants it all.It&’s time for them to decide what&’s most important—hockey or love.It&’s time to make a call.Need more Reid? Don't miss The Shots You Take—a sweet and sexy hockey romance about two ex-best friends with benefits who are about to discover whether you can ever really have a second chance. Available now!Game Changers Book 1: Game Changer Book 2: Heated Rivalry Book 3: Tough Guy Book 4: Common Goal Book 5: Role Model Book 6: The Long Game
The Long Hallway (Living Out: Gay and Lesbian Autobiog)
by Richard Scott LarsonGrowing up queer, closeted, and afraid, Richard Scott Larson found expression for his interior life in horror films, especially John Carpenter’s 1978 classic, Halloween. He developed an intense childhood identification with Michael Myers, Carpenter’s inscrutable masked villain, as well as Michael’s potential victims. In The Long Hallway, Larson scrutinizes this identification, meditating on horror as a metaphor for the torments of the closet. Larson was only nine years old when he recognized something of his own experience in how Michael Myers hid his true face from the world. This spark of recognition ignited his imagination while he searched for clues to what the future might hold for boys like him, all the while being made to understand his nascent sexuality as deviant and punishable. Like in the movies, his superficially safe suburban childhood was in fact filled with threat: a classmate’s murder, his father’s alcoholism and death, and his own sexual assault by a much older man. The figurative mask Larson learned to wear could not contain his yearning to be seen and desired. In the aftermath of this violence, his boyhood self came to believe that fear and desire would be forever intertwined. This lyrical memoir expresses a boy’s search for identity while navigating the darkness and isolation of a deeply private inner world. With introspection and tenderness, Larson reflects on how little we understand in the moment about the experiences that mark us forever.
The Long Road Home
by Sarah GrangerAfter wandering medieval England in an attempt to escape his memories of war, former soldier Tom Weston settles on Sir Andrew's estate in a peaceful vale, where he works as a groom. A visit from one of the royal princes, however, shatters his sanctuary. Prince Ian seems determined to lure Tom out of the stable and into the bedroom, but however tempting Tom finds Ian, he has no intention of rolling over on royal command. Unexpectedly, the two become friends. At last Tom decides he might want more after all--but he isn't the only one haunted by the war.
The Long Run
by James Acker"A boldly authentic new voice in queer fiction." —Abdi Nazemian, author of Stonewall Honor book Like a Love Story and The Chandler LegaciesTwo track and field athletes find an unexpected but powerful love in this unapologetically blunt and unforgettably real YA debut. Sebastian Villeda is over it. Over his rep. Over his bros. Over being "Bash the Flash," fastest sprinter in South Jersey. His dad is gone, his mom is dead, and his stepfather is clueless. Bash has no idea what he wants out of life. Until he meets Sandro. Sandro Miceli is too nice for his own good. The middle child in an always-growing, always-screaming Italian family, Sandro walks around on a broken foot to not bother his busy parents. All he wants is to get out and never look back. When fate—in the form of a party that gets busted—brings these two very different boys together, neither of them could&’ve predicted finding a love that they&’d risk everything for…
The Long Shot: A Novel
by Paul MonetteAn unlikely pair races to find a murderer in the hazy underbelly of Los Angeles Vivien Cokes and her husband, Jasper, are LA royalty, and they have the lifestyle to prove it. Big parties, a huge mansion in Malibu, and complicated affairs are all part of the package. However, during a morning swim, Vivien makes a discovery that changes her life forever. Smelling smoke, she sees her home in flames, and inside, she finds her husband dead in the hot tub with his male lover in an apparent double suicide. To find out the truth behind her husband&’s death, Vivien must turn to the unlikeliest of sources: a failed writer and grifter who was the boyfriend of her husband&’s late lover. After finding kinship in a sort of shared widowhood, the two set out to bring to justice the people behind their loved ones&’ deaths. Paul Monette has a poet&’s touch, and his aptitude is on full display in The Long Shot as he immerses readers in a mystery with a cast of characters that is as diverse and memorable as the city in which they live. This ebook features an illustrated biography of Paul Monette including rare images and never-before-seen documents from the Paul Monette papers of the UCLA Library Special Collections.
The Long Slide Home (The Rainbow League #3)
by Kate McmurrayThe Rainbow League: Book ThreeNate and Carlos have been the best of friends since their childhood playing baseball together in the Bronx. For the past few years, Nate's been in love with Carlos, though he's never acted on it and Carlos has never given any indication that he returns Nate's feelings. Nate has finally given up, determined to move on and find someone else, especially now that Carlos has shacked up with his boyfriend, Aiden. Carlos doesn't understand why Nate has suddenly gotten weird, acting cold and distant at team practice for the Rainbow League. But if that's how things are going to be, Carlos is done trying to figure Nate out. But then Aiden reveals he has a violent side, and Carlos needs his best friend's support. On top of that, he starts to realize his feelings for Nate might not be limited to friendship. But in the aftermath of his relationship with Aiden, and with Nate having problems of his own, the timing is all wrong to make a real relationship work. As emotions run high, both have a hard time figuring out what is real and what is just convenient.
The Long and Winding Road (Bear, Otter, and the Kid Chronicles #4)
by Tj KluneSequel to The Art of BreathingFamily is not always defined by blood. It’s defined by those who make us whole—those who make us who we are. And here, at the end, Bear and Otter will be tested like they’ve never been before. There’s a knock at the door from a little girl who has nowhere else to go. There’s a phone ringing, bringing news they do not expect. There’s a brother returning home after learning how to stand on his own. As these moments converge, all of their lives will change forever. Beginning in Bear, Otter, and the Kid and continuing in Who We Are and The Art of Breathing, TJ Klune has told a saga of family and brotherhood, of love and sacrifice. In this final chapter, the events of the past pave the long and winding road toward a future no one could have imagined.
The Longest Goodbye: The awardwinning author of WITHOUT A TRACE returns with her most heart-pounding crime thriller yet - DCI Kate Daniels 9 (Kate Daniels #3)
by Mari HannahLIES COST LIVESTHE BRAND NEW KATE DANIELS THRILLERThree years ago police officer Georgina Ioannau was murdered, her killers never brought to justice.Now the prime suspects have been shot dead within hours of their return to the UK.Has someone finally taken the law into their own hands?Seeking out the truth will force Kate Daniels to confront her own past mistakes, and put her career, and her team's lives, on the line.The gripping new Kate Daniels thriller about what happens when someone takes the law into their own hands from awardwinning crime writer Mari Hannah.
The Longest Goodbye: The awardwinning author of WITHOUT A TRACE returns with her most heart-pounding crime thriller yet - DCI Kate Daniels 9 (Kate Daniels #3)
by Mari HannahLIES COST LIVESTHE BRAND NEW KATE DANIELS THRILLERThree years ago police officer Georgina Ioannau was murdered, her killers never brought to justice.Now the prime suspects have been shot dead within hours of their return to the UK.Has someone finally taken the law into their own hands?Seeking out the truth will force Kate Daniels to confront her own past mistakes, and put her career, and her team's lives, on the line.The gripping new Kate Daniels thriller about what happens when someone takes the law into their own hands from awardwinning crime writer Mari Hannah.
The Lookback Window: A Novel
by Kyle Dillon HertzNew York Times Editors&’ Choice Debutiful Best Book of the Year One of Crimereads Best Crime Novels of 2023 &“Hertz has managed to tell a story of queer healing with all the narrative force of a thriller and the searing fury of an indictment.&” —The New York Times Book Review A fearless debut novel of resilience, transcendence, and the elusive promise of justice.Growing up in suburban New York, Dylan lived through the unfathomable: three years as a victim of sex trafficking at the hands of Vincent, a troubled young man who promised to marry Dylan when he turned eighteen. Years later—long after a police investigation that went nowhere, and after the statute of limitations for the crimes perpetrated against him have run out—the long shadow of Dylan&’s trauma still looms over the fragile life in the city he&’s managed to build with his fiancé, Moans, who knows little of Dylan&’s past. His continued existence depends upon an all-important mantra: To survive, you live through it, but never look back. Then a groundbreaking new law—the Child Victims Act—opens a new way foreword: a one-year window during which Dylan can sue his abusers. But for someone who was trafficked as a child, does money represent justice—does his pain have a price? As Dylan is forced to look back at what happened to him and try to make sense of his past, he begins to explore a drug and sex-fueled world of bathhouses, clubs, and strangers&’ apartments, only to emerge, barely alive, with a new clarity of purpose: a righteous determination to gaze, unflinching, upon the brutal men whose faces have haunted him for a decade, and to extract justice on his own terms. &“Hertz writes with a powerful blend of publicly experienced scene and deeply private interiority...[he] expertly presents both the rapturous façade of post-closet gay life and the cracks in its hastily constructed foundation,&” (Slant). Hertz&’s debut is &“cathartic and revelatory…[and] a gritty recovery story that packs a punch&” (The Bay Area Reporter). It offers a startling glimpse at the unraveling of trauma—and the light that peeks, faintly, and often in surprising ways, from the other side of the window.
The Lost Autobiography of Samuel Steward: Recollections of an Extraordinary Twentieth-Century Gay Life
by Scott Herring Samuel Steward Jeremy MulderigOn August 21, 1978, a year before his seventieth birthday, Samuel Steward (1909–93) sat down at his typewriter in Berkeley, California, and began to compose a remarkable autobiography. No one but his closest friends knew the many different identities he had performed during his life: as Samuel Steward, he had been a popular university professor of English; as Phil Sparrow, an accomplished tattoo artist; as Ward Stames, John McAndrews, and Donald Bishop, a prolific essayist in the first European gay magazines; as Phil Andros, the author of a series of popular pornographic gay novels during the 1960s and 1970s. Steward had also moved in the circles of Gertrude Stein, Thornton Wilder, and Alfred Kinsey, among many other notable figures of the twentieth century. And, as a compulsive record keeper, he had maintained a meticulous card-file index throughout his life that documented his 4,500 sexual encounters with more than 800 men. The story of this life would undoubtedly have been a sensation if it had reached publication. But after finishing a 110,000-word draft in 1979, Steward lost interest in the project and subsequently published only a slim volume of selections from his manuscript. In The Lost Autobiography of Samuel Steward, Jeremy Mulderig has integrated Steward’s truncated published text with the text of the original manuscript to create the first extended version of Steward’s autobiography to appear in print—the first sensational, fascinating, and ultimately enlightening story of his many lives told in his own words. The product of a rigorous line-by-line comparison of these two sources and a thoughtful editing of their contents, Mulderig’s thoroughly annotated text is more complete and coherent than either source alone while also remaining faithful to Steward’s style and voice, to his engaging self-deprecation and his droll sense of humor. Compellingly readable and often unexpectedly funny, this newly discovered story of a gay life full of wildly improbable—but nonetheless true—events is destined to become a landmark queer autobiography from the twentieth century.
The Lost Book of the White (The Eldest Curses #2)
by Cassandra Clare Wesley ChuFrom #1 New York Times bestselling authors Cassandra Clare and Wesley Chu comes the second book in the Eldest Curses series and a thrilling adventure for High Warlock Magnus Bane and Alec Lightwood, for whom a death-defying mission into the heart of evil is not just a job, it&’s also a romantic getaway. The Lost Book of the White is a Shadowhunters novel.Life is good for Magnus Bane and Alec Lightwood. They&’re living together in a fabulous loft, their warlock son, Max, has started learning to walk, and the streets of New York are peaceful and quiet—as peaceful and quiet as they ever are, anyway. Until the night that two old acquaintances break into Magnus&’s apartment and steal the powerful Book of the White. Now Magnus and Alec will have to drop everything to get it back. They need to follow the thieves to Shanghai, they need to call some backup to accompany them, and they need a babysitter. Also, someone has stabbed Magnus with a strange magical weapon that is changing the very nature of his powers. Fortunately, their backup consists of Clary, Jace, Isabelle, and newly minted Shadowhunter Simon. In Shanghai, they learn that a much darker threat awaits them. Magnus&’s magic is growing unstable, and if they can&’t stop the demons flooding into the city, they might have to follow them all the way back to the source—to the very realm of the dead.
The Lost Book of the White (The Eldest Curses)
by Cassandra Clare Wesley Chu*Be amongst the first to read this brand-new blockbuster from Cassandra Clare. Pre-order NOW!* From #1 New York Times and USA TODAY bestselling author Cassandra Clare and award-winning author Wesley Chu comes the second book in the Eldest Curses series, which continues the love story between Magnus Bane and Alec Lightwood. The Lost Book of the White is a Shadowhunters novel. Magnus Bane and Alec Lightwood are settling into domestic life with their son Max when the warlocks Ragnor Fell and Shinyun Jung break into their loft and steal a powerful spell book. Realizing that Ragnor and Shinyun are being controlled by a more sinister force, Magnus and Alec set out to stop them and recover the book before they can cause any more harm. With the help of Clary Fairchild, Jace Herondale, Isabelle Lightwood, and Simon Lovelace (who is fresh from the Shadowhunter Academy), they track the warlocks to Shanghai. But nothing is as it seems. Ragnor and Shinyun are working at the behest of a Greater Demon. Their goal is to open a Portal from the demon realms to Earth, flooding the city of Shanghai with dangerous demons. When a violent encounter causes Magnus&’s magic to grow increasingly unstable, Alec and Magnus rally their friends to strike at the heart of the demon&’s power. But what they find there is far stranger and more nefarious than they ever could have expected…This edition also includes a never-before-seen wedding scene featuring fan favourites from the Shadowhunters universe. Perfect for fans of Leigh Bardugo, Holly Black and Sarah J. Maas. Also by Cassandra Clare:The Dark Artifices:Lady Midnight Lord of Shadows Queen of Air and DarknessThe Eldest Curses:The Red Scrolls of MagicThis edition also includes a never-before-seen wedding scene featuring fan favourites from the Shadowhunters universe.
The Lost Language of Cranes
by David Leavitt"Set in the 1980s against the backdrop of a swiftly gentrifying Manhattan, David Leavitt's first novel tells the story of twenty-five-year-old Philip, who decides that he must come out to his parents, Owen and Rose, after he falls in love, for the first time, with a man. Meanwhile Owen and Rose are facing their own crisis: the conversion of their apartment building from a rental to a co-op means that they may lose their longtime home. Yet the greater threat to the family's security is Owen's unspoken desire for other men, indulged for years in Sunday afternoon visits to a gay porn theater. Philip's decision to come out to his parents jolts Owen out of his complacency, altering forever the terms of his life and his marriage."--BOOK JACKET.
The Lost Locket: A Power Up! Story (PowerUp! #1)
by Marie HarteThe first steamy, stand-alone romance in New York Times bestseller Marie Harte’s psychic, romantic suspense series—POWERUP! Things heat up when two handsome psychics track down a missing locket and the stubborn woman determined to keep it. A m/m/f romance. Psychic ex-government agent Keegan Price likes beer, sex, and relaxing after a hard day’s work. He’s looking forward to exercising his telekinetic skills on a real case. When James Foreman tags along, so much the better. Foreman’s a wiseass who loves a good time, and his ability to manipulate fire comes in handy. Keegan knows they’re overqualified for this simple retrieval, but he figures he and James have earned a working vacation after spending so many hours in that damn gym. Except the case turns out to be anything but simple. The locket they’ve been sent to find is a weapon; he and James can’t take their eyes off the woman wearing it; and their spiraling sexual attraction for each other and her makes for one hell of a ride. This title has been previously released.Warning: this title contains the following: man-on-man shenanigans, psychic maneuvers, a sexy Texan, cussing, and a woman who gets to be the middle of a steamy man-wich. “A great example of what Marie Harte does so well... In The Lost Locket the M/M relationship was given a chance to develop and work before they met the female..”Tanya, Goodreads
The Lost Souls (The Grim Life #3)
by K.D. WorthThe Grim Life: Book ThreeTeenage grim reapers Max and Kody are already dealing with being dead… and now they’re expected to save the world. With the help of their guardian angel, Slade, and each other, Max and Kody have finally discovered the destiny God planned for them—help the lost souls languishing in purgatory back to heaven. But they’re still growing into their roles. Kody, the Healer, struggles to understand the power born of his empathy, and Max’s abilities as Protector suffer because of longing for his best friend… along with Slade’s dire prediction that Max will lose Kody. So many are depending on them, and they’ll have to summon all the love and faith inside them to face a mass school shooting and bring love and hope to those who need it most.
The Lost Sunlion: A magical adventure for ages 8-12 (The Last Firefox #3)
by Lee NewberyThe third magical adventure in the Last Firefox series.When out-of-control weather brings danger to his home town, Charlie Challinor suspects that more than climate change might be to blame. Heading back to Fargone with Cadno the firefox, Lippy and Roo, Charlie discovers the magical realm is also in dire peril.The sinister giant Gawr has stolen the Cariad, the Heart of Fargone, mixing up the world's magic and plunging the land into chaos. With the Cariad's ancient guardian, the sunlion Llew, missing in action, only Charlie and his friends can save the day - but at what cost . . . ?