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House of the Rising Sun
by Chuck HustmyreRAY SHANE is an ex-New Orleans vice cop who just finished a five-year stretch in federal prison. Now he's back home in the Big Easy and looking to stay out of trouble. But trouble is exactly what he gets when four masked gunmen rob the House of the Rising Sun, the mob-owned illegal gambling hall and brothel where Shane is in charge of security. On their way out the door, the gunmen also blow away the nephew of the New Orleans Mafia boss. Now Shane has to find the killers, but as he tracks them down one by one he learns again an old lesson--in New Orleans nothing is ever what it seems.
House of the Rising Sun (Hackberry Holland)
by James Lee BurkeNew York Times bestseller and 'one of the finest crime writer's America has ever produced' James Lee Burke returns with his latest masterpiece, the story of a father and son separated by war.From its opening scene in revolutionary Mexico to the Battle of the Marne in 1918, and on to the bordellos and saloons of San Antonio during the reign of the Hole in the Wall Gang, House of the Rising Sun is an epic tale of love, loss, betrayal, vengeance, and retribution that follows Texas Ranger Hackberry Holland on his journey to reunite with his estranged son, Ishmael, a captain in the United States Army.After a violent encounter that leaves four Mexican soldiers dead, Hackberry escapes the country in possession of a stolen artifact, earning the ire of a bloodthirsty Austrian arms dealer who then places Hack's son Ishmael squarely in the cross hairs of a plot to recapture his prize, believed to be the mythic cup of Christ.Along the way, we meet three extraordinary women: Ruby Dansen, the Danish immigrant who is Ishmael's mother and Hackberry's one true love; Beatrice DeMolay, a brothel madam descended from the crusader knight who brought the shroud of Turin back from the Holy Land; and Maggie Bassett, one-time lover of the Sundance Kid, whose wiles rival those of Lady Macbeth. In her own way, each woman will aid Hackberry in his quest to reconcile with Ishmael, to vanquish their enemies, and to return the Grail to its rightful place.Praise for one of the great American crime writers, James Lee Burke:'James Lee Burke is the heavyweight champ, a great American novelist whose work, taken individually or as a whole, is unsurpassed.' Michael Connelly'A gorgeous prose stylist.' Stephen King'Richly deserves to be described now as one of the finest crime writers America has ever produced.' Daily MailFans of Dennis Lehane, Michael Connelly and Don Winslow will love James Lee Burke: Hackberry Holland Series1. Lay Down My Sword and Shield 2. Rain Gods 3. Feast Day of Fools 4. House of the Rising Sun Dave Robicheaux Series1. The Neon Rain 2. Heaven's Prisoners 3. Black Cherry Blues 4. A Morning for Flamingos 5. A Stained White Radiance 6. In the Electric Mist with Confederate Dead 7. Dixie City Jam 8. Burning Angel 9. Cadillac Jukebox 10. Sunset Limited 11. Purple Cane Road 12. Jolie Blon's Bounce 13. Last Car to Elysian Fields 14. Crusader's Cross 15. Pegasus Descending 16. The Tin Roof Blowdown 17. Swan Peak 18. The Glass Rainbow 19. Creole Belle 20. Light of the World 21. Robicheaux Billy Bob Holland Series1. Cimarron Rose 2. Heartwood 3. Bitterroot 4. In The Moon of Red Ponies * Each James Lee Burke novel can be read as a standalone or in series order *
House of the Rising Sun: A Novel (A Holland Family Novel)
by James Lee BurkeBestselling author James Lee Burke&’s &“stunning&” (Publishers Weekly, starred review) masterpiece is the story of a father and son separated by war, circumstance, and a race for the Holy Grail—a thrilling entry in the Holland family saga.After a violent encounter that leaves four Mexican soldiers dead, Texas Ranger Hackberry Holland escapes the country in possession of a stolen artifact believed to be the mythic cup of Christ, earning the ire of a bloodthirsty Austrian arms dealer who places Hack&’s son, Ishmael, squarely in the cross hairs of a plot to recapture his prize. On the journey from revolutionary Mexico in 1918 to the saloons of San Antonio during the Hole in the Wall Gang&’s reign, we meet three extraordinary women: the Danish immigrant who is Ishmael&’s mother and Hackberry&’s one true love; a brothel madam descended from the Crusader knight who brought the Shroud of Turin back from the Holy Land; and a onetime lover of the Sundance Kid, whose wiles rival those of Lady Macbeth. In her own way, each woman will aid Hack in his quest to reconcile with Ishmael, to vanquish their enemies, and to return the Grail to its rightful place. An epic tale of love, loss, betrayal, vengeance, and retribution, The House of the Rising Sun further cements Burke&’s reputation as &“one of America&’s all-time masters&” (New York Journal of Books).
House on Fire: A Fated Mates Romance (Ashes and Dust #2)
by Jenn BurkeHe&’s done fighting his attraction to the sexy vampire… To say former firefighter Colin Zhang is struggling to accept his new life would be a vast understatement. He&’s bound to a vampire he didn&’t choose, living in a house filled with creatures better left to the imagination—there&’s a lot to resent. As much as he tries, he doesn&’t resent Evan—far from it. But he needs to know that what he feels is real and that requires breaking their bond. No matter the cost. Vampire private investigator Evan Fournier is more than willing to explore his connection with Colin, but the crisis at hand keeps getting in the way. Their bond makes it dangerous for them to be apart, so he&’s forced to put the other man at risk while he investigates the latest in a series of murders. If he doesn&’t find the killer soon, the paranormal community will seek retribution on all humans, not just the guilty ones. As the tensions escalate, Evan and Colin find solace in each other and their growing attraction. But if their bond is broken, attraction—even love—might not be enough to keep them safe.Ashes and DustBook 1: All Fired UpBook 2: House on Fire
House on Fire: A Novel
by Bonnie KistlerIn the bestselling tradition of Jodi Picoult and Celeste Ng, a tightly wound and suspenseful novel about a blended family in crisis after a drunk driving accident leaves the daughter of one parent dead—and the son of the other parent charged with manslaughter. Divorce lawyer Leigh Huyett knows all too well that most second marriages are doomed to fail. But five years in, she and Pete Conley have a perfectly blended family of her children and his. To celebrate their anniversary, they grab some precious moments of alone time and leave Pete’s son Kip, a high school senior, in charge of Leigh’s fourteen-year-old daughter Chrissy at their home. Driving back on a rainy Friday night, their cell phones start ringing. After a raucous party celebrating his college acceptance to Duke and his upcoming birthday, Kip was arrested for drunk driving after his truck crashed into a tree. And he wasn’t alone—Chrissy was with him. Twelve hours later, Chrissy is dead and Kip is charged with manslaughter. Kip has always been a notorious troublemaker, but he’s also a star student with a dazzling future ahead of him. At first, Leigh does her best to rally behind Pete and help Kip through his ordeal. Until he changes his story, and claims that he wasn’t driving after all—Chrissy was, and he swears there is a witness. Leigh is stunned that he would lie about such a thing, while Pete clutches onto the story as the last, best hope to save his son, throwing his energy and money into finding this elusive witness. As they hurtle toward Kip’s trial date, husband and wife are torn between loyalty to their children and to each other, while the mystery of what really happened that night intensifies. This richly conceived and tightly plotted exploration of family and tragedy will have you racing toward its shocking and thought-provoking conclusion.
House on Fire: A Novel (A Nick Heller Novel #4)
by Joseph FinderIn New York Times bestselling author Joseph Finder's electrifying new thriller, private investigator Nick Heller infiltrates a powerful wealthy family hiding something sinister.Nick Heller is at the top of his game when he receives some devastating news: his old army buddy Sean has died of an overdose. Sean, who once saved Nick&’s life, got addicted to opioids after returning home wounded from war. Then at Sean&’s funeral, a stranger approaches Nick with a job, and maybe also a way for Nick to hold someone accountable. The woman is the daughter of a pharmaceutical kingpin worth billions. Now she wants to become a whistleblower, exposing her father and his company for burying evidence that its biggest money-maker was dangerously addictive. It was a lie that killed hundreds of thousands of people, including Sean. All Nick has to do is find the document that proves the family knew the drug&’s dangers. But Nick soon realizes that the sins of the patriarch are just the beginning. Beneath the surface are barely concealed cabals and conspiracies: a twisting story of family intrigue and lethal corporate machinations. In a deadly game of chess that pits Nick against a family dynasty, against brothers and sisters with schemes of their own, Nick learns how far his enemy is willing to go to protect its name and its wealth.
House on the Forgotten Coast: A Novel
by Ruth Coe ChambersLike a monarch surveying her domain, the house has stood for over a hundred years in the fishing village of Apalachicola on Florida’s northwest coast. She has known life. She has known passionate love. She has known brutal death. But she has guarded her secrets well . . . Then eighteen-year-old Elise Foster and her parents arrive from Atlanta in their silver Jaguar, bringing with them their own secrets and desires. Seeking friendship in their new community, they find instead that the townspeople resent their intrusion. But this intrusion on the house’s privacy also provides a pathway for the past and the present to merge—and for the truth behind an unsolved murder to finally be brought to light. As you strive to solve the mystery, you and the Fosters are forced to address two critical questions: What is real? What is delusion?
House with No Doors: A creepy and atmospheric psychological thriller
by Jeff NoonAt first glance, Leonard Graves’ death was unremarkable. Sleeping pills, a bottle of vodka, a note saying goodbye. But when Detective Henry Hobbes discovers a grave in the basement, he realizes there is something far more sinister at work. Further investigation unearths more disturbing evidence. Scattered around the old house are women’s dresses. All made of the same material. All made in the same colours. And all featuring a rip across the stomach, smeared in blood. As the investigation continues and the body count rises, Hobbes must also deal with the disappearance of his son, the break-up of his family and a growing sense that something horrific happened in the Graves’ household. And he’s running out of time to find out what.
Houseboat Mystery (Boxcar Children #12)
by Gertrude Chandler Warner David CunninghamHenry, Jessie, Violet, and Benny used to live alone in a boxcar. Now they have a home with their grandfather and are spending a vacation traveling down the river on a houseboat. Throughout their journey, the Boxcar Children have the feeling they're being watched. Little do they know, someone is looking for something on their houseboat-and he'll stop at nothing until he gets it!
Houseboat Mystery (The Boxcar Children Mysteries #12)
by Gertrude Chandler WarnerFour brave siblings were searching for a home – and found a life of adventure! Join the Boxcar Children as they investigate a mystery while vacationing on a houseboat in this illustrated chapter book series beloved by generations of readers.The Aldens spend their summer traveling in a houseboat! But when a black car shows up at every place they dock, the children begin to think someone is after something on the boat. Can the Boxcar Children figure out what the pursuer could be after?What started as a single story about the Alden Children has delighted readers for generations and sold more than 80 million books worldwide. Featuring timeless adventures, mystery, and suspense, The Boxcar Children® series continues to inspire children to learn, question, imagine, and grow.
Houseboat on the Nile (Spy vs. Spook #1)
by TinneanSpy vs. Spook: Book OneMark Vincent is WBIS--Washington Bureau of Intelligence and Security. Quinton Mann is staunchly CIA. Mark thinks the CIA is full of dilettantes who leave him and the rest of the WBIS to clean up their messes. Quinn thinks most WBIS agents are sociopathic loose cannons. So they don't exactly get along. Of course, just because they don't like each other doesn't mean they can't play mind games on each other. Or sleep together. But when an explosion at Mark's apartment sends Quinn to the morgue to ID a body, he has to reevaluate his position on denial.
Houston Attack (Hawker #5)
by Randy Wayne WhiteHawker infiltrates a human trafficking operation at the Mexican border In a forgotten town on the wrong side of Texas, James Hawker stumbles into a fetid dive bar. The most dangerous vigilante in America is blind drunk, and stinks of mescal. He begs the bartender for help getting back across the border, and the man obliges--for a fee. He introduces Hawker to a pair of toughs, who chain him up in the back of a truck and begin the long trip north. Hawker has been captured by a modern-day slaving outfit--and it's exactly what he had in mind. Hawker's nationwide war against organized crime has led him to Houston, where the land barons of Texas have found a way to save money on labor: Capture vagrants in Mexico and put them to work as field hands--and worse. To break the slave ring, Hawker has placed himself right in the line of fire. Houston Attack is the 5th book in the Hawker series, but you may enjoy reading the series in any order.
Houston Noir (Akashic Noir #0)
by Gwendolyn ZepedaThe fourth-largest city in the US is long overdue to enter the Noir Series arena, and does so blazingly. “There’s precious little comfort to be found in any of these Houston neighborhoods, most of which are set light-years away from the city’s notoriously cushy new-money culture . . . Houston comes across as a haven of multiculturalism—though, as in all the 90-plus volumes of Akashic’s 15-year-old series, the vision of the city that emerges isn’t likely to jump-start tourism for any but the most ghoulishly inclined.” —Kirkus Reviews “Brooklyn Noir came first in 2004, and now, 15 years later, Houston Noir—14 stories of intrigue, betrayal and death set from Tanglewood to Third Ward penned by current or former Houston authors—goes on sale.” —Houston Chronicle Akashic Books continues its award-winning series of original noir anthologies, launched in 2004 with Brooklyn Noir. Each book comprises all new stories, each one set in a distinct neighborhood or location within the respective city. Brand-new stories by: Tom Abrahams, Robert Boswell, Sarah Cortez, Anton DiSclafani, Stephanie Jaye Evans, Wanjiku Wa Ngugi, Adrienne Perry, Pia Pico, Reyes Ramirez, Icess Fernandez Rojas, Sehba Sarwar, Leslie Contreras Schwartz, Larry Watts, and Deborah D.E.E.P. Mouton. From the introduction by Gwendolyn Zepeda: In a 2004 essay, Hunter S. Thompson described Houston as a “cruel, crazy town on a filthy river in East Texas with no zoning laws and a culture of sex, money and violence. It’s a shabby, sprawling metropolis ruled by brazen women, crooked cops and super-rich pansexual cowboys who live by the code of the West—which can mean just about anything you need it to mean, in a pinch.” For what it’s worth, that quote is now posted on a banner somewhere downtown and regularly, gleefully repeated by our local feature writers. Houston is a port city on top of a swamp and, yes, it has no zoning laws. And that means it’s culturally diverse, internally incongruous, and ever-changing. At any intersection here, I might look out my car window and see a horse idly munching St. Augustine grass. And, within spitting distance of that horse, I might see a “spa” that’s an obvious brothel, a house turned drug den, or a swiftly rising bayou that might overtake a car if the rain doesn’t let up . . . Overall, this collection represents the very worst our city has to offer, for residents and visitors alike. But it also presents some of our best voices, veteran and emerging, to any reader lucky enough to pick up this book.
Hover: A Novel
by Anne A. Wilson“A memorable heroine thrown into a unique, exhilarating setting with an equally heart-pounding love interest. . . . thrilling, romantic, [and] cinematic.” —Michelle Gable, New York Times–bestselling author of A Paris ApartmentHelicopter pilot Lt. Sara Denning steps into her brother’s shoes after his tragic death and joins a navy battle group, despite her fear of water. Sara’s philosophy is simple—blend in, be competent, and above all, never do anything to stand out as a woman in a man’s world.Somewhere along the way, Sara lost herself—her feminine, easygoing soul is now buried under so many defensive layers, she can’t reach it anymore.When she meets strong, self-assured Lt. Eric Marxen, her defenses start to falter. Eric coordinates flight operations for a Navy SEAL team that requests Sara as the exclusive pilot. This blatant show of favoritism causes conflict with the other pilots. It doesn’t help that her interactions with Eric leave her reeling.Soon the training missions become real, and Sara must overcome her fears before they plunge her into danger. When Sara’s life is on the line, can she find her true self again and follow the orders of her heart before it is too late?Anne A. Wilson’s Hover is a thrilling, emotional women’s journey written by a groundbreaking former navy pilot.“An engaging new voice, crackling with authenticity.” —CJ Lyons, New York Times–bestselling author of Farewell to Dreams“Wilson offers a must-read that merges suspense, intrigue, and romance in a dynamic setting.” —Library Journal“Tightly written training scenes make for a smart, absorbing thriller.” —Kirkus Reviews“Wilson’s experience as an active-duty U.S. Navy helicopter pilot brings a nuanced perspective to her thrilling debut.” —Booklist
How Can I Be a Detective If I Have to Babysit?
by Linda BaileyDetective Stevie Diamond and her partner, Jesse Kulniki, take off for her dad's tree-planting camp in desperate need of adventure. What they find is a job taking care of five-year-old Alexander Creely. It's insulting! Stevie is steaming until she hears about Rubberface Ragnall--a smuggler who has been ransacking Alexander's trailer. Suddenly, baby-sitting seems the perfect job for the Diamond and Kulniki Detective Agency.
How Can I Help You
by Laura SimsFrom the author of Looker comes this &“compulsive and unforgettable novel&” (Mona Awad) of razor-sharp suspense about two local librarians whose lives become dangerously intertwined.No one knows Margo&’s real name. Her colleagues and patrons at a small-town public library only know her middle-aged normalcy, congeniality, and charm. They have no reason to suspect that she is, in fact, a former nurse with a trail of countless premature deaths in her wake. She has turned a new page, so to speak, and the library is her sanctuary, a place to quell old urges.That is, at least, until Patricia, a recent graduate and failed novelist, joins the library staff. Patricia quickly notices Margo&’s subtly sinister edge, and watches her carefully. When a patron&’s death in the library bathroom gives her a hint of Margo&’s mysterious past, Patricia can&’t resist digging deeper—even as this new fixation becomes all-consuming.Taut and compelling, How Can I Help You explores the dark side of human nature and the dangerous pull of artistic obsession as these &“transfixing dual female narrators&” (Kimberly McCreight) hurtle toward a stunning climax.
How Come the Best Clues Are Always in the Garbage? (Stevie Diamond Mystery #1)
by Linda BaileyStevie Diamond and her friend Jesse have a thief to catch. A thousand dollars is missing from her mother's apartment and although there are lots of suspects, there aren't very many clues. A worthy challenge for Stevie Diamond, Detective! Set in Vancouver, the very first Stevie Diamond Mystery is a funny and entertaining read.
How Does Your Garden Grow?
by Agatha ChristiePreviously published in the print anthology Poirots Early Cases. At a flower show, a mysterious woman gives Hercule Poirot an empty seed packet. The next day, she is found dead, and Poirot has his suspicions about the identity of the killer.
How Far She's Come: A Novel
by Holly BrownFrom the highly acclaimed author of Don’t Try to Find Me and This is Not Over comes the unforgettable, harrowing story of a young broadcast journalist who discovers a mysterious diary from a female broadcaster in 1991 featuring startling—and frightening—parallels to her own life.You might be wondering what a diary from 1991 has to do with you. You're about to find out. Those who don't learn from the past are doomed to repeat it…Twenty-four-year-old Cheyenne Florian has just received her dream job offer. On the strength of a few vlogs, she’s recruited to be the new correspondent on the recently hatched Independent News Network, INN.With the slogan “Because independent thinking is the only way out,” INN has branded itself as innovative. Yet once Cheyenne joins the INN team, she finds age-old dynamics in play. Some of the female staff resent her meteoric rise, while a number of the men are only too happy to welcome her. Then there’s the diary left for her anonymously, written in 1991 by a female broadcaster named Elyse Rohrbach. The mysterious diary is accompanied by a note, urging Cheyenne to learn from the past. She wants to believe it’s intended as inspiration and friendly advice, or at most, a warning. But as disturbing—and increasingly dangerous—parallels begin to emerge, she starts to wonder if something more sinister is at work. It’s almost as if someone is engineering the similarities in Cheyenne’s life to match those from Elyse’s past, like she’s a pawn in a very twisted game. But Cheyenne is determined to rewrite the rules and play her own game. Though they’re separated by more than twenty-five years, Elyse and Cheyenne are forced to learn the same lesson: Nothing is more threatening than a woman who doesn’t yet know her own power…
How Goes the Murder?
by Ellery QueenThe 1-eyed detective Tim Corrigan tears New York apart in search of an assassin Tim Corrigan was the toughest detective in the NYPD before he joined the army, and fighting in Korea didn't make him any softer. He returned with an eye patch and a sidekick: a tough-as-nails GI named Chuck Baer, who picked up a private investigator's license in order to keep an eye on his old foxhole buddy. In a fair fight, these 2 veterans could take down any hoodlum in New York. But the man they're up against doesn't fight fair. Running for state senate, liberal lawyer Art Cough is halfway through a stump speech when he's interrupted by a right-wing heckler from the anticommunist group known as PUFF. Before Cough can resume, a shot rings out. He falls dead, and the killer disappears into the crowd. To catch the sniper, Corrigan and Baer will have to go to war once more.
How High the Moon
by Karyn ParsonsTo Kill a Mockingbird meets One Crazy Summer in this powerful, bittersweet debut about one girl's journey to reconnect with her mother and learn the truth about her father in the tumultuous times of the Jim Crow South. <P><P> Dreaming In the small town of Alcolu, South Carolina, in 1944, 12-year-old Ella spends her days fishing and running around with her best friend Henry and cousin Myrna. But life is not always so sunny for Ella, who gets bullied for her light skin tone, and whose mother is away pursuing a jazz singer dream in Boston. So Ella is ecstatic when her mother invites her to visit for Christmas. Little does she expect the truths she will discover about her mother, the father she never knew and her family's most unlikely history. And after a life-changing month, she returns South and is shocked by the news that her schoolmate George has been arrested for the murder of two local white girls. <P><P> Bittersweet and eye-opening, How High the Moon is a timeless novel about a girl finding herself in a world all but determined to hold her down.
How I Became a Spy: A Mystery of WWII London
by Deborah HopkinsonFrom the award-winning author of The Great Trouble comes a story of espionage, survival, and friendship during World War II.Bertie Bradshaw never set out to become a spy. He never imagined traipsing around war-torn London, solving ciphers, practicing surveillance, and searching for a traitor to the Allied forces. He certainly never expected that a strong-willed American girl named Eleanor would play Watson to his Holmes (or Holmes to his Watson, depending on who you ask).But when a young woman goes missing, leaving behind a coded notebook, Bertie is determined to solve the mystery. With the help of Eleanor and his friend David, a Jewish refugee--and, of course, his trusty pup, Little Roo--Bertie must decipher the notebook in time to stop a double agent from spilling the biggest secret of all to the Nazis.From the author of The Great Trouble, this suspenseful WWII adventure reminds us that times of war call for bravery, brains and teamwork from even the most unlikely heroes.
How I Became the Mr. Big of People Smuggling
by Martin ChambersNick Smart is fresh out of school, a wet-behind-the-ears jackaroo on a gap year. But at Palmenter Station, nothing is what it seems. Nick is about to discover there’s a lot of grey between black and white, between legal and illegal and between right and wrong.
How I Lost You: 'Utterly gripping' Clare Mackintosh
by Jenny Blackhurst'Utterly gripping' Clare Mackintosh'Will keep you glued to your seat' Alex Marwood____________________________My name is Emma Cartwright. Three years ago I was Susan Webster, and I murdered my twelve-week-old son. I have no memory of what happened but you believe what your loved ones, your doctor and the police are telling you, don't you?But if you can't remember what happened, how can you be sure that they are telling the truth? And if there was the smallest chance your son was alive, wouldn't you do anything to get him back?This gripping No.1 eBook bestseller is perfect for fans of Heidi Perks, Cara Hunter and Phoebe Morgan's THE BABYSITTER.____________________________Praise for Jenny Blackhurst's novels:'Addictive stuff' WOMAN & HOME'Dark as hell' SUSI HOLLIDAY'An addictive thriller' GOOD HOUSEKEEPING'Jenny is an evil genius' LISA HALL'A thoroughly twisty treat' HEAT'A compulsive, thoroughly engrossing thriller' RED MAGAZINE'Hooked from the first page and kept me guessing right up until the end' CLAIRE DOUGLAS'Utterly gripping' WOMAN'S OWN'An outstanding and original thriller' BA PARIS'An ideal read for Desperate Housewives fans' WOMAN'S WEEKLY
How I Lost You: A Novel
by Jenny Blackhurst&“An addictive read; a strong recommendation for those who like suspense tinged with a little romance.&”—Booklist A woman without a memory struggles to discover the truth about her past and her identity in this cerebral and dark thriller reminiscent of works by bestselling authors S.J. Watson and Ruth Ware.I have no memory of what happened but I was told I killed my son. And you believe what your loved ones, your doctor and the police tell you, don't you? My name is Emma Cartwright. Three years ago I was Susan Webster, and I murdered my twelve-week-old son Dylan. I was sent to Oakdale Psychiatric Institute for my crime, and four weeks ago I was released early on parole with a new identity, address, and a chance to rebuild my tattered life. This morning, I received an envelope addressed to Susan Webster. Inside it was a photograph of a toddler called Dylan. Now I am questioning everything I believe because if I have no memory of the event, how can I truly believe he's dead? If there was the smallest chance your son was alive, what would you do to get him back?