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A Dutiful Boy: A memoir of secrets, lies and family love (Winner of the LAMBDA 2021 Literary Award for Best Gay Memoir/Biography)
by Mohsin ZaidiWINNER of the Polari First Book Prize 2021WINNER of the LAMBDA 2021 Literary Award for Best Gay Memoir/BiographyA Dutiful Boy is Mohsin's personal journey from denial to acceptance: a revelatory memoir about the power of love, belonging, and living every part of your identity.Growing up in a devout Muslim household, it felt impossible for Mohsin to be gay. Unable to be open with his family, and with difficult conditions at school, he felt his opportunities closing around him. Despite the odds, Mohsin's perseverance led him to become the first person from his school to attend Oxford University, where new experiences and encounters helped him to discover who he truly wanted to be. Mohsin was confronted with the biggest decision he would ever make: to live the life that was expected of him or to live as his authentic self.A Guardian, GQ, and New Statesman Book of the Year'Genuinely inspiring... Beautifully written, dignified and ultimately redemptive, this challenging story abounds with light and love' Attitude | 'An Incredibly important read' Jyoti Patel
Forget I Told You This: A Novel (Zero Street Fiction)
by Hilary ZaidWinner of the Barbara DiBernard Prize in Fiction Amy Black, a queer single mother and an aspiring artist in love with calligraphy, dreams of a coveted artist&’s residency at the world&’s largest social media company, Q. One ink-black October night, when the power is out in the hills of Oakland, California, a stranger asks Amy to transcribe a love letter for him. When the stranger suddenly disappears, Amy&’s search for the letter&’s recipient leads her straight to Q and the most beautiful illuminated manuscript she has ever seen, the Codex Argentus, hidden away in Q&’s Library of Books That Don&’t Exist—and to a group of data privacy vigilantes who want her to burn Q to the ground. Amy&’s curiosity becomes her salvation, as she&’s drawn closer and closer to the secret societies and crackpot philosophers that haunt the city&’s abandoned warehouses and defunct train depots. All of it leads to an opportunity of a lifetime: an artist&’s residency deep in the holographic halls of Q headquarters. It&’s a dream come true—so long as she follows Q&’s rules.
Bosie
by Igor Zahir Juliana ArangoDescripción del libro: En su primer libro de ficción, el autor "rescata" un diario perdido de Lord Alfred Douglas, Bosie, "el joven inspirador" y el grande amor de Oscar Wilde. En su libro, Bosie cuenta su versión (más que honesta) de los hechos que siguen, y que hasta el día de hoy, siguen siendo material de escrutinio público. Muestra también por qué Bosie le llamó tanto la atención al más grande dramaturgo de su era. Es difícil leerlo y no tener las mismas dudas que Wilde cargó en su interior por tantos años: ¿amor u odio, Bosie? ¿Será que todo el mundo tiene un poco de Bosie adentro? Adaptada al teatro en Sao Paulo. Recomendada como una lectura veraniega por la revista Vogue.
Martin McLean, Middle School Queen
by Alyssa ZaczekIn this “fun, inspiring, and delightful” debut, a seventh grader finds his voice—and his inner diva—as he navigates friendship, family, first crushes and more (School Library Journal). Seventh-grader Martin McLean has always been surrounded by people who can express themselves. His mother is an artist, his colorful Tío Billy works in theater, and his best friends Carmen and Pickle are outgoing charmers. But Martin can only find the right words when he’s answering a problem at a Mathletes competition—until his tío introduces him to the world of drag. In a swirl of sequins and stilettos, Martin creates his fabulous drag queen alter ego, Lottie León. As Lottie, he is braver than he’s ever been; but as Martin, he doesn’t have the guts to tell anyone outside of his family about her. Not Carmen and Pickle, not his fellow Mathletes, and definitely not Chris, an eighth-grader who gives Martin butterflies. When Martin discovers that his first-ever drag show is the same night as an important Mathletes tournament, he must find a way to pull off both appearances—and channel his inner drag superstar.
Juicy Bits
by Logan Zachary Rhidian Brenig Jones Kim Dias Nikki West Briana Lawrence John Amory Rob Rosen Olivia Duncan Craig J. I. Radke Dawn Kimberly Johnson Lucy Whedon Heloise West Pearl Love S K Manganelli Jay Northcote J. J. Cassidy A. Morell Johnny Murdoc Mina Kelly Rick BettencourtWhat's your favorite part of a romance? If you like the juicy bits--the moments when two or more sexy men can't wait any longer to satisfy their cravings--then this anthology is for you. These stories of strangers, casual lovers, established couples, and friends who can no longer deny the passion between them push the limits and set the pages on fire. In a scorching collection of erotic scenes ranging from funny and sweet to hardcore kinky, the guys get right to the meat of the story. Whether they're in the shower, in the locker room, at the office, on a moving train, or just connecting over the phone, they keep things steamy, sticky, and most of all, juicy. Stories Included: What I've Been Missing by John AmoryNever Kiss by Rick BettencourtNot Water Resistant by J.J. CassidyHeat Wave by Olivia Duncan CraigHot Coffee by Kim DiasFor What It's Worth by Rhidian Brenig JonesSandman and the Cookie by Dawn Kimberly JohnsonDial It Up by Mina KellyVoyeur-something by Briana LawrenceStrangers on the Northeast Regional by Pearl Love2 Weeks 6 Days 2 Long by S K ManganelliSparks by A. MorellSwim Meet by Johnny MurdocAn Invitation by Jay NorthcoteLucky XIII by J. I. RadkeFarmer in the Dell by Rob RosenRiver Gods by Heloise WestHunting by Nikki WestPlay with Me by Lucy WhedonIn Good Hands by Logan Zachary
Cupid's Creams
by Logan ZacharyAs Cupid’s arrow finds its mark,A true love will rise from the dark.Delicious goodness filled with sweet creams,Will deliver to you the man of your dreams.An excerpt from his family recipe book leads baker Michael Hartsell to make Cupid's Creams for a Valentine's Day special. Little does he know what power these delicious treats will hold when his high school crush, ex-quarterback Josh Davidson, walks in to buy some treats for his nephew Lucky to give to school teachers and friends for the holiday.Michael lets them both taste and Lucky decides on the new recipe. Josh orders some Cupid’s Creams and invites Michael for drinks and dinner that evening. What magic will these powerful little bursts of sugar contain? Will cupid's arrow find its mark?
Dead by Dawn
by Logan ZacharySkip Helsing is on vacation celebrating his new sunscreen. Little does he know trouble is brewing with his new “Youth Forever” formula, which allows for a newly-found freedom to a dangerous race.Dominick wants Skip’s new formula for himself, and isn’t willing to share it with the world. As Dominick searches for Skip, a few innocent people are hurt as Skip enjoys body surfing at the resort.Steve has been sent to protect Skip as he splashes in the surf and tans on the beach, but who will save Steve from the sexy, naked guy beside him in bed? As the sun starts to set, danger rises for the new lovers. How far will they go to protect each other? Who will be Dead by Dawn?
ValleyScare
by Logan ZacharyAn amusement park called ValleyScare readies for Halloween, giving its rides and attractions horrific turns to scare those brave enough to pay the price of admission. Monsters and zombies abound as Drew and Jason enter the Horror Hotel. Swinging walls and a maze of mirrors quickly separate the two.Jason falls down a trap door and slides into an operating room, where he meets Dr. Pain and Dr. Drill. The beefy masked physicians strip and prep him for his medical procedure. Strapped and gagged, Jason finds himself examined and explored with various instruments that are used to teach him new techniques for pleasure and pain.What do the “doctors” uncover? Will he survive the exam -- and the night -- at ValleyScare?
Transgender Experience: Place, Ethnicity, and Visibility (Routledge Research in Cultural and Media Studies #59)
by Chantal Zabus David CoadThis collection by trans and non-trans academics and artists from the United States, the UK, and continental Europe, examines how transgenderism can be conceptualized in a literary, biographical, and autobiographical framework, with emphasis on place, ethnicity and visibility. The volume covers the 1950s to the present day and examines autobiographical accounts and films featuring gender transition. Chapters focus on various stages of transitioning. Interviews with trans people are also provided.
Queer Childhoods: Institutional Futures of Indigeneity, Race, and Disability (Sexual Cultures)
by Mary ZaborskisExplores how the institutional management of children’s sexualities in boarding schools affected children’s future social, political, and economic opportunities Tracing the US’s investment in disciplining minoritarian sexualities since the late nineteenth century, Mary Zaborskis focuses on a ubiquitous but understudied figure: the queer child. Queer Childhoods examines the lived and literary experiences of children who attended reform schools, schools for the blind, African American industrial schools, and Native American boarding schools. In mapping the institutional terrain of queer childhoods in educational settings of the late nineteenth- and twentieth-century, the book offers an original archive of children’s sexual and embodied experiences. Zaborskis argues that these boarding schools—designed to segregate racialized, criminalized, and disabled children from mainstream culture—produced new forms of childhood. These childhoods have secured American futures in which institutionalized children (and the adults they become) have not been considered full-fledged citizens or participants. By locating this queerness in state archives and institutions, Queer Childhoods exposes a queer social history entangled with genocide, eugenics, and racialized violence.
Me and My House: James Baldwin's Last Decade in France
by Magdalena J. ZaborowskaThe last sixteen years of James Baldwin's life (1971–87) unfolded in a village in the South of France, in a sprawling house nicknamed “Chez Baldwin.” In Me and My House Magdalena J. Zaborowska employs Baldwin’s home space as a lens through which to expand his biography and explore the politics and poetics of blackness, queerness, and domesticity in his complex and underappreciated later works. Zaborowska shows how the themes of dwelling and black queer male sexuality in The Welcome Table, Just above My Head, and If Beale Street Could Talk directly stem from Chez Baldwin's influence on the writer. The house was partially torn down in 2014. Accessible, heavily illustrated, and drawing on interviews with Baldwin's friends and lovers, unpublished letters, and manuscripts, Me and My House offers new insights into Baldwin's life, writing, and relationships, making it essential reading for all students, scholars, and fans of Baldwin.
Counterpoint (Twisted Wishes #2)
by Anna ZaboTwisted Wishes lead guitarist Dominic “Domino” Bradley is an animal onstage. But behind his tight leather pants and skull-crusher boots lies a different man entirely, one who needs his stage persona not only to perform, but to have the anonymity he craves. A self-imposed exile makes it impossible to get close to anyone outside the band, so he’s forced to get his sexual fix through a few hot nights with a stranger.When computer programmer Adrian Doran meets Dominic, he’s drawn to the other man’s quiet voice and shy smile. But after a few dirty, demanding nights exploring Dominic’s need to be dominated, Adrian wants more than a casual distraction. He has no idea he’s fallen for Domino Grinder—the outlandish, larger-than-life rock god.Dominic is reluctant to trust Adrian with his true identity. But when the truth is revealed prematurely, Dominic is forced to reevaluate both his need for Adrian and everything he believes about himself. One-click with confidence. This title is part of the Carina Press Romance Promise: all the romance you’re looking for with an HEA/HFN. It’s a promise!This book is approximately 93,000 wordsCarina Press acknowledges the editorial services of Mackenzie Walton
Daily Grind
by Anna ZaboA man discovers that love can show up when you least expect it—and in a much different form—in this piping-hot romance from the author of Due Diligence and Just Business.Brian Keppler, owner of Ground N'At, the coffee shop beneath SR Anderson Consulting, doesn't have time for a relationship. His most recent girlfriend broke up with him because he'd become married to his shop, which is falling apart without his favorite barista, Justin.As he struggles to stay afloat, the arrival of handsome British high-tech whiz Robert Ancroft becomes another complication. Rob quickly becomes a fixture at the shop with his sharp wit and easy charm, and Brian soon finds himself looking forward more and more to Rob's visits—to the point where his heart skips a beat when he walks in. But will Brian be able to come to terms with his previously unexplored sexual identity and find happiness now that he has a chance?Praise for the romances of Anna ZaboSee where it all began with a special excerpt from Anna Zabo's Takeover."Zabo offers an engaging narrative that ropes readers in from the beginning, addressing issues of trust, love, sex, and homophobia while also crafting potent sex scenes."—Library Journal (starred review)"A deliciously erotic and emotional romance that I would highly recommend even if you're not normally a BDSM fan."—The Book Vixen"This book was phenomenal. Something about the story line and these two men just resonated with me and I really loved their story."—Smitten With Reading
Due Diligence
by Anna ZaboA business trip leads to a surprise encounter with an old flame in this sexy romance from the author of Just Business. After Fazil Kurt breaks up with his girlfriend, a business trip to Seattle offers some much-needed time away. Sent by S.R. Anderson Consulting, Fazil is there to help audit Singularity Storage, a company they are trying to save. His first discovery is intriguing to say the least: One of Singularity's engineers is Todd Douglas, Fazil's first love. He knows better than to get personally involved on a job like this. Back in high school, Todd broke Fazil's heart more times than he could count, but both men have grown so much since then--and Fazil never could say no to Todd...
Just Business
by Anna ZaboFrom the thriling new author of Takeover, a steamy new novel about having all the control--and losing it... Justin White may not look like an up and coming corporate superstar, but his new boss knows he has the smarts, grit, and determination to succeed. Now he just has to convince his company's CFO, Eli Ovadia. Unfortunately, Justin can't seem to keep his cool around the domineering Eli--and soon he finds himself taking their heat from the boardroom into the bedroom.... Still haunted by a tragic accident that left him with a wounded leg and broken heart, Eli has a need to be in control. But his desire for Justin makes him want to lose that control--and push them both far beyond their limits. But will his need to dominate Justin drive him away--or will Eli find a way to be the man he needs for both of them? MATURE AUDIENCE
Reverb (Twisted Wishes #3)
by Anna ZaboThe tougher they are, the harder they fall.Twisted Wishes bass player Mish Sullivan is a rock goddess—gorgeous, sexy and comfortable in the spotlight. With fame comes unwanted attention, though: a stalker is desperate to get close. Mish can fend for herself, just as she always has. But after an attack lands her in the hospital, the band reacts, sticking her with a bodyguard she doesn’t need or want.David Altet has an instant connection with Mish. A certified badass, this ex-army martial arts expert can take down a man twice his size. But nothing—not living as a trans man, not his intensive military training—prepared him for the challenge of Mish. Sex with her is a distraction neither of them can afford, yet the hot, kink-filled nights keep coming.When Mish’s stalker ups his game, David must make a choice—lover or bodyguard. He’d rather have Mish alive than in his bed. But Mish wants David, and no one, especially not a stalker, will force her to give him up.This book is approximately 105,000 wordsOne-click with confidence. This title is part of the Carina Press Romance Promise: all the romance you’re looking for with an HEA/HFN. It’s a promise!
Syncopation (Twisted Wishes #1)
by Anna ZaboThere’s no resisting the thrum of temptation in this male/male rock-star romance from genre-favorite author Anna Zabo!Twisted Wishes front man Ray Van Zeller is in one hell of a tight spot. After a heated confrontation with his bandmate goes viral, Ray is hit with a PR nightmare the fledgling band so doesn’t need. But his problems only multiply when they snag a talented new drummer—insufferably sexy Zavier Demos, the high school crush Ray barely survived.Zavier’s kept a casual eye on Twisted Wishes for years, and lately, he likes what he sees. What he doesn’t like is how out of control Ray seems—something Zavier’s aching to correct after their first pulse-pounding encounter. If Ray’s up for the challenge.Despite the prospect of a glorious sexual encore, Ray is reluctant to trust Zavier with his band—or his heart. And Zavier has always had big dreams; this gig was supposed to be temporary. But touring together has opened their eyes to new passions and new possibilities, making them rethink their commitments, both to the band and to each other.This book is approximately 102,000 wordsOne-click with confidence. This title is part of the Carina Press Romance Promise: all the romance you’re looking for with an HEA/HFN. It’s a promise!Carina Press acknowledges the editorial services of Mackenzie Walton
Takeover (Takeover #1)
by Anna ZaboAn exciting new voice in romance proves that giving in can be the best way to let go... Michael Sebastian thought Curacao would be the perfect place to have a little fun in the sun--and between the sheets. So far, no one has struck his interest, until Sam Anderson walks into the bar. With one look at his tense body and expensive suit, Michael knows that this is a man in need of release. And Michael is more than willing to lend a hand. Shattered by the most intense sex he's ever had, Sam has to face the facts--one night with a handsome, dominating stranger is all he gets before returning to the closet he's been suffocating in for years. But when Sam starts his new job as the CEO of a failing technology company, he discovers that Michael is one of his new employees. While Michael is desperate for another night with Sam, he knows he shouldn't get involved with his boss, let alone another man who can't accept who he is. But as they're forced to work together to save the company, the desire sparking between them becomes impossible to ignore... MATURE AUDIENCE Anna Zabo writes contemporary and paranormal romance for all colors of the rainbow. She has an MFA in Writing Popular Fiction from Seton Hill University, where she fell in with a roving band of romance writers and never looked back. She also has a BA in Creative Writing from Carnegie Mellon University. She lives in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, which isn't nearly as boring as most people think.
Worth the Wait (2015 Advent Calendar - Sleigh Ride)
by Cari Z. Caitlin RicciWhen Tate promises his niece Addie he'll get a book signed by her favorite author, he never expects to end up in a line four blocks long with sleet coming down around him. It's three days until Christmas and he's cold and miserable, but Addie will be devastated if he gives up. A cute guy who offers him an umbrella is just the encouragement Tate needs to stick it out, especially when Brandon brings him something hot to drink. But the signing ends before Tate can get to the front of the line, and Tate is sure he's ruined Christmas for his niece. Luckily Brandon gets him in to see the author, who happens to be his mother. A simple thank you isn't enough for Tate, and neither he nor Brandon wants to end things there. For two men unused to such an instant mutual attraction, the Christmas season just got a little more merry.A story from the Dreamspinner Press 2015 Advent Calendar package "Sleigh Ride".
Animal Magnetism
by Cari Z. A. J. Marcus Kate Pavelle Chris T. Kat Avery Vanderlyle Minerva Wisting Liz Makar Emily Gould G. S. Wiley R. Cooper Matthew Vandrew Heidi Champa Lily Velden Skylar Jaye Kim FieldingLions and tigers and bears, oh my! Whether it's a dog, cat, or something more exotic, the animals in this collection of romantic m/m stories serve as the catalyst for bringing lovers together. No matter how the encounter begins, by the end of each story, with a little help from their finned, furred, or feathered friends, our heroes have discovered some animal magnetism of their own. Stories included are: A Few Too Many by Heidi Champa Having a Ball by Cari Z. Along Came Spiders by Matthew Vandrew Cuddling Up by Chris T. Kat New Tides by Avery Vanderlyle Care and Rehabilitation by Kim Fielding Butterbean and the Pretty Princess Make a Home by R. Cooper Jonno by Emily Gould On an Eagle's Wings by A.J. Marcus Why Did the Chicken Cross the Road? by Skylar Jaye Tears for a Broken Sun by Minerva Wisting Stripped Bare by Lily Velden Wild Horses by Kate Pavelle Show and Tell by Liz Makar The Conch Republic by G.S. Wiley
The Art of Possession
by Cari ZWhen a treasure-hunting black ops soldier and a disgraced, reckless archeologist team up in search of a priceless artifact, they might get more than they bargained for. Ever since leaving the Green Berets to work in private security, Alex Tucker has longed for some excitement—and he’s about to get his wish. Archeologist Malcolm Armstrong needs the chance to prove he isn’t a fraud. Along with Alex, he’s hired to track down and authenticate a valuable scepter, in a hunt that turns deadlier than either of them imagined as they search dangerous locations across three continents and try to stay ahead of the factions who want the treasure for themselves—and Malcolm and Alex dead. Just as they realize the feelings between them transcend convenience and the thrill of the chase, a rival reemerges, threatening everything.
A Blinded Mind
by Cari Z.Jonathan Hatcher has led an interesting life. Once the psychic protégé of Dr. Nelson Cagney of the Bureau of Psychological Corrections, he escaped and went on the run through post-World War Three Europe, scraping a living out of the ruins of civilization and avoiding the mindless vics: humans turned berserker by exposure to biological and chemical weapons. Once again at Cagney's mercy, Jonathan is stuck in PsyCo's high-security wing with no idea whether Sam, the man he thinks he may love, is alive or dead by his hand. Though at first he only plays along for news of Sam, soon Jonathan sees the conditions in the warring European Coalition are desperate. Sam and Jonathan must make a choice: make for France and a life together... or team up with their captors against a devastating new threat.
Changing Worlds
by Cari Z.2nd EditionTheir love will either inspire change in the world or tear it apart. Former starship captain Jason Kim and his lover, Ferran, are starting a life together on Ferran's native planet. The Perel matriarchs reluctantly allowed their marriage in the hopes of securing better diplomatic relations with humanity, even though the decision ignites anger from traditionalists. Ferran's family accepts Jason and the love the two men have found, but other influential families are less accommodating and much less willing to welcome an outsider to their isolated, subterranean world. Some of their enemies are willing to go as far as eliminating Jason permanently. Tensions are quickly building toward a breaking point that might push Perelan into a bloody civil war. If Jason and Ferran have any hope of surviving the coming conflict, they'll have to rely on their devotion to each other more than ever before. But that won't be easy when a figure from Jason's past reappears to make them question everything.First Edition of Opening Worlds published by Storm Moon Press, 2011.First Edition of Changing Worlds published by Storm Moon Press, 2012.
Different Spheres
by Cari Z.Gil Donaldson returned to his hometown of Boulder, Colorado, after a diagnosis of multiple sclerosis cut short his teaching career and his love life on the East Coast. Waking one morning to find that his vision has gone blurry, which makes driving himself to the hospital out of the question, Gil solicits the help of his slightly-reclusive neighbor, Warren Masters, to take him to the ER. The two men become friends over the course of Gil's recovery from his latest relapse, and while Gil recognizes he's attracted to the other man, he refuses to act on it. Gil doesn't like relying on anyone else to ensure his emotional or physical health, and he's grown used to being alone, or at least that's what he tells himself. Warren is a man of few words, but he's there whenever Gil needs him, and he has only one request for them to be together.
Handle With Care (Dreamspun Desires #68)
by Cari Z.A fragile heart needs extra care. Burned-out social worker Aaron McCoy is on vacation for the first time in years—boss’s orders. Road-tripping to his brother’s wedding with his best friend, Tyler, seems a fun way to spend the mandatory two-week leave, and they set out for Kansas—and a difficult homecoming. Aaron’s mother was a drug addict, and his adorable younger brother was quickly adopted, while Aaron spent his childhood in foster care. As Aaron mends fences, Tyler hopes to show him that this time, he won’t be left behind to face his problems alone. Aaron’s opening up to how right it feels to be with Tyler and to the possibility of taking the leap from friends to lovers. But along with the wedding celebration comes a painful reminder of the past. Aaron’s heart is still breakable. Can he put it in Tyler’s hands?